Fried Spaghetti

It would be a lie to say I didn't find solace in food.

Studying every night trying to weave the intricate details of the Vietnam Conflict together when I only have four days to teach it; when I desperately want 18 year olds to understand the concepts, the insanity, of this war--  I crave fried spaghetti.

Involved in a tense phone conversation with a family member, I unconsciously drift to the kitchen, pull out cheese and crackers.

Overwhelmed by the writing of three, 2000 word essays due in a week, the Dutch chocolate with hazelnuts slowly disappears from the cupboard.

When I flew home to take care of Dad, I always made two cottage cheese pies. He enjoyed them, but those pies helped me cope with a cantankerous man who'd started falling and couldn't pick himself up.

Yesterday afternoon, driving home from my last day of teaching a stellar group of seniors, I craved mashed potatoes. Too much work to make from scratch, I popped a bowl of popcorn, melted butter and grated cheese to sprinkle on top.

Sometimes I'm not even aware of an emotional strain when out of the blue I want oatmeal cookies. I stop. Try to reflect. Try to understand. Once I clarify the stress I hadn't consciously acknowledged, I can set aside the oatmeal box and wait for dinner. If not, the slow practice of measuring, melting, and mixing, puts trouble on the shelf for just a minute. A minute respite might be all that's needed.

Though therapists, self-help gurus, and weight aficionados may suggest alternatives to comfort-eating, it can be an effective and temporary remedy for sadness, for confusion, and distraction from overwhelming burdens. But so is a walk, a phone call to a trusted friend, and especially reaching out and helping others.

Perhaps  a combination of comforts is the best remedy for the blues. Baking cookies and sharing with a neighbor, a bike ride to babysit the grandkids, may be two of many seismic shifts out of sadness.



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